Carnal Perfection

Lana was so real when she said "I'm crying while I'm cumming" because now I've got tears streaming down my face since I can't have you and my inner thighs are wet while I use my fingers to relieve that painful pleasurable perfect tightness nerve endings bristling because I want you I want you I want you on top and inside and underneath while I smile and gasp and moan and scream and twitch while you fuck me so passionately that I start to feel God's presence it would be heaven I suck my index and middle finger each time I finish and fantasize that they're yours that I'm sucking because I want to taste you and taste myself on you someday the taste of carnal perfection. 

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